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Two kinds of time

21-5-02

     The last 2000 of years we have the time lived as a straight line from birth to death. All is predictable on that line and the human lives this programmated and real thinking is not necessary. The death begins very young, the scienty has found out that the calcium in the body begins on the 12th year. On that year the most small veins from the blood system, who were before the 12th year also in the bones, are driving out by the calcium that filled those small veins up. You can let fall a baby from the table and he will not break anything because all his bones are full of blood and with that full of life. The calcium drives the life out the bones and this process goes on and also the more thicker veins get calcium and the brains get calcium and then you do not longer know what are your feets and what are your hands. Many people end so their life, they give it a name, dementia. But do not forget that already on your 30 year old your brains can be dement as a lead door and you listen to another who has spirit you even don’t know where he is talking about. So, enough from this straight line of life. There is many more to say about it. when you are not an artist or a yogi, it is the only thing you can speak about. Enough from that.
   Now we go to the real life. In the real life the time is a circle, you are born on the outside of this circle. This circle goes also for a small part through the before be born. So you were already there and no one has seen you. When you live this circle, who goes also a little part through the death, then you go to understand the life, and you see that be born is physical situation of your real being and the death is also a physical situation. You self stays on the circle. Buddha told his wisdom to go before the death. All the eastern wisdom has as essention this circle. The old book of wisdom the I Ching has 64 characters and the higher you come you come in yin and yang, one step higher is already a circle called Tai Ji, there yin and yang are the highest situation of love. The yang, the manly side, turns around the yin, the womanly side, and then it changed and the womanly side turned around the yang as core, and the womanly is spread out. They have each other in balance, there is the great love and one step higher as this love is the empty circle called Wu Ji and that is the God time. When you are be born in god’s time, this is the word the new scienty now give it, but the real word is the mythological time. So you can see long  times ago the West had known from this mythologic time, but then the whole human being has jumped in the realistic materialistic thinking. and they are going to make autocars, airplanes, and get the idiot idea to give all their money to stay some steps on the moon, for absolute nonsense. This nonsense has become to be a culture and a chaos. Enough of that.
   Back to the spirit. when you are born and you hold the time that you was not yet on the world you hold that as base of your life. Then you have nothing to learn because you already know all and your moving is to go around the circle and go a time through the death.

   To have been in a war, to have seen the destruction of the materie and see this as yourself, then there is no fear in you because this is part of the life, all burning around you, 1000ds of bodies who are like the stones who are fall down, then you see that those stones and those bodies that is one and you walk through it and you have still the life. Then you know that there is no emotion in you, because you are living in the circle and you go back to before you was born and you can sleep in the snow, you can 5 days without eating and have no hunger. There is a great proud in you to be part of the circle. When the be born has taken place, the really material be born, then it is from very great worth where this find place. I, Anton Heyboer, has the great blessing to be born in the jungle of a little isle practical without people, and to come out parents who has the most stupid job there is, my father must watch mountains of coal, where the ships get their power out in that time, 78 years ago. He must look how much coals there comes out the European ships and how much coals the Chinese ships loaded. He needs only a little piece of paper, and that was his job. It was so in the jungle life that white people could not protect a just be born, because all the women apes comes by the shed to steal it. They comes because they smell that, what they have to protect. So white people colonials, so were their names, give you on a native who has the smell of the jungle to survive. You was the whole day on her back in a slendang they call that. You get her smell, that was your protection that is why you could survive, but you get also her thinking, she was a Hindustani woman and that stands close to Buddha. It is like by the dogs the first 6 weeks you get the imprinting and that makes your whole life. The weeks after that you get her socialization and I get that when she took me with her to the little bamboo shelter her parents and she lived. After that there comes the power situation you should have in the world. I get that with the monkeys, I must let see that I am strong and that they take distance.

   We left that isle go to other isles and when I was four years there comes the first fight between the white blood from my parents and the eastern blood I had took over from the Hindustani woman. At my 6th year this confrontation came to reality. The white blood said to me: the easy in me shows I had no character. but I had built up already the power to say to this great white man: your whole thinking has no character. He knocked me down out conscience and with that he gave me my freedom. I have a deep respect for him that he saw that I was already man. I had no longer a place in the family they let me go. The most I grow up in the woods of the isle of the west Indian.
   When on one of the travelings we were in Holland and there came the war with the Germans and after a year I was in it in Berlin and this is a long story, ended in that I have to survive, escaped out the prison, out the state-prison of Berlin and find my bread in the black market under the ground, in the U-Bahns. That you must be the strongest is still now on my 78 years. That says nothing. I am on the circle, my veins in my bones are still open, so they saw on a röntgen-photo, they said you are still not 12 years.
   Because women are too much for me to live with one woman is not the Eastern constellation when you have the money to it, there are four women around you. Listen good what I say, they are around, and that  is enough. They have a love for me because they felt the not yet be born and they felt the survived the death in the war and what I do, every day, is to show myself, that I am the strongest, I do this with a form of karate where I had made art from. Every evening I am total broken. but happy with this life that had no end. The women around me takes all my karate explosions on paper, sometimes 6 meter long, mostly one meter, and the women made a fabric of themself with their four, where they all four are directors, and they sell it to the world and I stand total beside that. I have nothing because I know I am nothing, I am only spirit. And that I live the circle I am every day new for the women and that makes that they need nothing, even touching is not necessary. This is a complete world, that need seldom the outside world for help because when one is sick, there are three others that makes that there is no one sick and then at last I will tell you Buddha was sitting the whole day and thinking to go before death. I have the great blessing to be born as a double Aquarius in a star world that has begun in the time of my birth to be Aquarius, so I am one with the vibrations of the universe, so the emptiness of the circle is for me the life.

   The last 20 years I have not left the barn in the swamp here where we live. I need no daylight, I have the light in me. I make it from out the sferics from the stars that is another light as the light of the sun. This is a more universal light. Every morning half six I stand up. Not out the bed but laying on oil drums and I go to sit from six to ten and a half without moving like yoga sit and the whole world is far away and I have only love in me and this love give me the power to work the whole afternoon till 5 and make 50 yoga things. They have called it in the world works of art.
   A new love must have touched me deep to my soul to bring my spleen in the love vibration that is the base of the white blood cells in spiritual way and so the base of my resistance, and let me feel strong. Several months ago a woman with a complete family touched me and brings in the emptiness of the circle a living and she felt that and I felt that it is universal and I can work hard.

Created by Zen master Anton Heyboer 2002

 

Anton Heyboer, 1924-2005    SITEMAPPLATTEGROND