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The angel on the land
12/6/2002
I was going as a fisherman with a
small boat fishing in the harbor on the border of the sea. This is outside the
water-doors the ships must go through, and in my time outside the water-door you
had the total responsibility for yourself, and you may go on sea with a small
boat because only when you have another with you, the assurance will not pay by
accidents on sea. I was too poor to know about assurance and I was also not
interested in it, because the sea is life or death. I had just the war behind me
in Berlin, four years, with thousands of dead women and children, because the
men were fighting at Stalingrad. Each night there came several thousand by,
because the Canadians and the Americans were bombing Berlin. Your feelings are
going a total other way when you live in that. You never saw a girl because they
all worked in hospitals and on the field. With that in me I was that fisherman
who fished only for the meditation to do it. Because for eating there was so
many fish and from another poor man I got pieces of bread. For the first time in
my life I lived total beside the community.
On a day there raises a danger in me, the danger of Berlin, and I asked for a
cell in a mad-house. They gave me that and there, in that isolation, the madness
came over me and I stepped out the human time in the mythological time and I
took the incarnation of to be Christ. Christ is an archetype and that saved me
out the madness. Until now he is in me, but helped by the science from the
quantum mechanics from Julian Barbour, who’s book ‘there is no time’ came out in
1997, and it gave on that you can re-incarnate yourself. So the going down of
the Christ thoughts in the world and the breaking off the churches, I was not
part of to be depressed from that, because I told you yesterday that I
re-incarnate with leather climb-shoes by the Himalaya in India, and the base in
me was always Buddha, also in the time of I was Christ, because the words from
Christ “I am the way, the true and the life” are standing written in the book of
Laotze, who said from himselfl, l600 years before Christ in his book “The Tao”,
what means the Way, he wrote from himself “I am the way, the true and the life.
Jesus who created Christ, was from the Zen-Buddhism, and he studied in a
monastery theology, his parents let do him that, from of the time he was a small
boy, because he had a mission to give the European lands also a God, and a
structure out this God works and Jesus needed a person who took the suffering
from the world on him, that person must be free from programmations, and he
found out the immaculate conception.
This all is also in the Buddhism with other words. Buddha says ‘you have to go
back to before your birth’. That is also a making free from programmations. Now
I see how you can reincarnate yourself and how you can learn Zen MU, and with
that you have nothing on you shoulders.
The reincarnation to be in India, in the Himalayas, works so good in me, that
I should not say longer ‘I am Christ’, now I am more Jesus in another
incarnation as the Jesus who created the Christianity. One of the girls here
learned very fast the incarnation and the Mu, and also she is not longer who she
was. The anger she had sometimes in her is away. She is good, and all is love.
This is already some weeks going on, and I thought when it can happen by that
woman, it must can happen also by another woman. You know there are five around
me.
I started five days ago with to say to a woman who gives her life away to be
the whole day the life of a lame woman here, and she was doing this already all
the 25 years she was here with me, to help animals. She has only a car to go to
the veterinarian, a car from €500, because we drive cars, which are too
expensive for people who had to use the car for what he is made to. Heavy cars
and needing too much fuel. They cost nothing, they all go to Turky, and when the
girl here on the land was a sport-girl, doing heavy sports, with weights, she
got a stroke and was half lame. This girl what had lived 25 years only the
animals, she set this over to this lame woman. We have all the time said to her
how much love she had, and now four or five days ago she came in the morning to
the place where we eat and I said “good morning, angel”, and I saw there
happened something in her. I have a great creative power, there we live from,
but I said every day to her “angel”, and now she has the name Angel here on the
land, and she is going so well in it that all that 25 years doing love has had
no identity, only the identity of love. And now she is not longer the Marike,
what was her name, but she is the Angel on the land, and the land feels rich,
and she is looking rich out her eyes. She is saying thanks to me and the other
girls who is already in ‘mu’ gives her also the identity of to be Angel. And
then I thought ‘she is incarnated in it’, because she needed an identity,
because what she was doing all the time was more as human. And now we know what
it was. She was going to be an angel. And now she is it.
Zen Master Anton Heyboer
God works without pity
Dec.7, 2002
You saw in the story before this the
daily work from our angel. And now the next day I want to let see you from how
far this angel has come to here. I said in the story before that I have a strong
creativity power out which we live, but I must explain that, I have only given
her the name of the position she has in this world. Her position on this earth.
And then I thought, I show you a picture of her from how she was when she came
to me. She was photo-model in Paris, and in Amsterdam she walked the shows from
Edgar Vos, a couturier from the best class. She had had the schooling on nun
schools and she grew up only with girls. The whole men’s world was strange for
her. She was so beautiful that Edgar Vos asked her to work for him and let see
the dresses he made for the marriage, because she was so pure.
There was a man, his name is Christiaan Braun, he has a great
computer-business, and he wanted to make a book over me on the computer. We have
talked, let us say I talked, I told my life-story, and we did that, let’s say
ten separate days, and then I said to him, I am an artist and I must be
inspired, and that happens by a beautiful woman. I cannot go deep in my past to
tell it to a man. He said “I know such a woman, but she is now model in Paris,
but I can give her the job to make this book”. He asked her by phone and she
came directly to Holland back, because she never had lived the inspiration from
the man and wife strength, what gives a meaning on the day. So she was very
lonesome, she did her model work and was sitting alone on one of the terraces in
Paris with a glass of wine.
To make a book was for her a more
quiet world, because there were always men around her, making avances and she
had no answer to this. She was looking for spirit, for high creative spirit,
like she was grown up in the God’s world with heavy disciplines. She heard me
speaking about the life, and after some months that life became a part of her.
On a day she waited by the gallery I worked for in those days, when I was still
working for the museums, and she came to my car, a landrover, painted by me like
a tiger. And I said to her “do you want to go with me to the place where I am
always talking about and you have never seen” she said yes. I drove and left
Amsterdam behind me, I stopped my car on the side of the way, and I said “do you
want to be a girl from me”. She said “yes, I want that”. I drove on and stopped
again, and I asked “do you want to be my wife”. She said “yes, I want that”. So
we came here in the swamp where the barn was standing where my two companions,
the wife Maria and the wife Lotti, were living, and far out their aura I lived
in the same barn. I said to Maria and Lotti “I have a new wife”. She was so
beautiful that Maria and Lotti said “Anton you get her from us as a present”.
She stayed on the land, what was the absolute opposite from the world she came
out. She was still a virgin and I let that so. On a day we make love, the really
sexual love, the first time in her life, I think she was a year here that we did
that as a seal. She was not afraid from me, only a several times we blessed the
seal. She saw it that way and I saw it that way. And then her life started with
changing clothes to let the world gone.
There were many dogs here and she touched them, and when one of them was hurt,
she goes with her soul to the soul of the dog. That is the same way I live with
the dogs, it brings you to God. There is a monastery where the monks all have
for themselves a shepherd dog, going out from this knowing, that when your soul
is like the soul of the dog, only when this dog saw no humans and not the world,
then your feelings and your believing goes more deep as it should be possible on
another way.
I tell this story to show you that the angels here – she was born like that –
only I gave her the name and took her with that out the human-being world. She
is not longer human, she is an angel now, I gave her that name, and I told her
also from out my Buddha soul, I told her how near she is by God. What God does,
he had to do, there is no pity in God, he is only there that you can find the
way. The Tao to him what gives you a straight and healthy mind. That is the work
of God.
The angel works in the same system, and this is important, because therefore I
told you this story, that she is not giving the other wife Maria a life out
pity, no, she is doing it because she has to do it, and Maria the lamed woman,
who get this life power from her, is also not feeling that this comes out pity,
and the result of this is, that in Maria is growing a spirit, with which she
stand above her lame side, and there is in her also the Mu. Not the yes, not the
no, but the mu, the absolute relativity. And now she is even go with me in the
mind in the quantum mechanics, which had spoken out the words “there is no
time”. Julian Barbour wrote that book and the University of Oxford gives it out
in 1997. And that there is no time, in that love she lives in, she can translate
it in “there is no lame”. With the TV she travelled over the world, and is so
far that she says “when you can see it this way and feel it this way, it is more
rich as to go to all those places. And there she comes in Zen, which said “the
wise man travels in his head”. Zen said also “the wise man travels in a wagon
with no windows”, and that comes very close to me. So I came to the conclusion
the to be lame of her is done by God to bring her in the possibility to come in
the most rich spiritual life of the mind, and find the real Tao, the real way as
result to have been on earth.
That is why I put this picture from Marike the angel above this story, because
that she gives the life to Maria without pity, Marike is an angel now and has
also the Buddha soul. The pictures shows you from how far she has come to be now
a part of God’s world, a great part. The part of the angel.
Zen Master Anton Heyboer
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