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Universal soul 2
Dec.2, 2002
You can
ask by yourself how can this man this all know so well. I will tell you it is
not from the theoretical side that this knowing is coming to me, but by the
reality I lived as artist. I started in 1946 as a fisherman with a small boat
that I had to row, and I fished in the harbors of
IJmuiden,
the harbor where all the big fisherships are lying, but where also other ships,
cargo ships, were going through the water-doors to Amsterdam, where a big
container-harbor is.
In my time you may fish in the harbors, which are enormous great, and I lived
there. Also the ships called steam-trawlers from before the second war, were
lying there, waiting for the last going over sea to England, where they cut them
in pieces.
I fished but I lived from the fish, which were smoked on the wall-side, and
which are not good enough to sell them because they were hanging above the fire,
and sometimes they fall off the iron pins and in the fire. They took them
directly out and outside this little fabrics there were standing drums with
just-smoked fish like the fish mackerel. I lived from that, because they throw
that away and I am lying with my little fishing boat near another old rescue
ship from the big ships where I slept on and had a fire in it. I lay for anchor,
so I turned around the anchor with the tides and near the wall there was lying
also a small fishing-ship coming out Norway with a man and his wife and two
sons, and on the beach from that harbor they were working to make another more
better fishing-ship. It was a small world, only that family and me, and that
part of the harbor was not used by other ships, and when that man out Norway saw
that I was only eating smoked fish, they gave me in the middle of the day a
piece of bread with butter on it and they eat that too.
So the fishing what I was doing was a meditation and there were never fishes
on the lines, because I did not know the secret from to fish on eel, and that is
to work with absolute clean hands and put your lines in the salt and let them
some days there, long enough that they are absolute clean because when the eel
with his super-nose smells that there was already once another eel on the hooks,
they stay away from the little fishes you used as bait. But for me that was no
problem, I had to eat and I had absolute no money, what means even not ten
cents. And after years you forgot what it was to have money. I lived that alone
and I also forgot that it belongs to the life to look to girls, because I was
used to look to the waves and I saw more in the waves and in how row them and I
forgot girls. When it rains you were wet and the rowing was heavy enough to get
dry. That was my life.
On a day repairing my boat with pieces of zinc, I cut in the zinc a little
boat and I did it with a sharp broken knife and so I cut also the harbor and
other ships and I was busy to create. Now I know that all the years be in
meditation on the waves this was already busy to create, and now there came as
result that I was an artist. Many years go on and then I thought I take the
black out an oil-lamp and with a little oil together, and I put it through two
rolls of iron what shoemakers use to make the leather hard and such things and
many many other iron was lying on the walls, because it was still a rough time,
the war was just ended. I was creating and now I know I was already the other,
but I was the other made by a talent or let’s say made by the waves and the
fisher-ship and the absolute no civilization.
On a day an artist saw it, a rich artist, and he bought them all, and I left
the sea and my boat, I was another now. A short after that I gave myself on and
asked for a cell in an insanity hospital, and there happens to me that I became
the soul of an artist. I was 7 months there, because it started with a soul
sickness.
Now I am 78 years old, and I have lived the last 50 years as artist. In the
beginning it was going to museums all over the world, after that I became to be
an easy hand-worker artist for the people who have not the money for to buy
museum art. I have lived this 20 years, an artist for the poor man, who was also
hanging in the Museum of Modern Art in New York and Pittsburg and the Ohara
Museum in Japan and in all them, but I make work for several hundred guilders
also. The art world does not like me because they find my work very good but
they want not to buy for 200 guilders and hang it in a museum. Only the queen of
this land, queen Beatrix, she put 2 big etchings from me in the museum and said
“now there is power here”, and she ordered me with to be knight of the Order of
Orange Nassau. She made this life true and I have a big love in me and respect
for her. that she has seen me, and she has seen the worth what I give the
community to bring the art back to how it started in the 17th century
as hand-work, talent hand-work. In the 17th century all hand-work was
talent. That is why all out that time is a culture. And now several months after
this stabilization of my art-soul I came in relation to the quantum mechanics of
Oxford, and I hear what Julian Barbour said about how the cosmos is built up,
and I understood it. It was like rowing the waves, and the last conclusion from
Oxford in 1997 was ‘there is no time’, and I understood it, because all those
years rowing the waves, see absolute no money, had placed me in that time in
‘there is no time’. And now the science comes to the conclusion ‘there is no
time’, it is one step farther as Einstein. ‘There is no time’ is now my life,
and it holds in that I had in the past created myself from fisherman to artist,
that falls away now. The whole world of daily create I feel now was a looking
to this scientific true, and that made that the creation has now become to be a
new incarnation.
All those years from creating are my skin now I left behind me, I don’t need
it anymore to create, because I feel I am incarnated, I am now what Zen says
‘you must be the other, never be yourself’. And I am incarnated and I can feel
that because it is not possible to have any problem, and that was in the
beginning – and this is important – in the time I was no-one, I was not part of
the world, I came out the war and started to rowing the waves and eating the
smoked fishes and no-one know that I exist, I had no address, I pay not for
sicknesses, assurances, I was total standing beside the world, I was no-one. And
I have the choice now, how I should incarnate. I know not as artist, I will use
that for the money, the little money and for the making happy from the
three-hundred people, poor people, who come in a week to buy one thing from my
hands for 150 guilders. It is not for me, that money, it is for the four
companions, four women from 40 to 60 years, so they can live their whole life
from the many many things I make. But I am not longer the man as artist, I can
make my choice in my incarnation, and the best choice I can make is to be again
no-one. I have already given all to my companions. For the society I already not
longer exist. But in the mind, in the brains, in all that matery what is
programmated, all that is away when you are again no-one. I can not sign this
story with Zen master alone, I had to explain that. I will do it in the next
time ’No-One Anton Heyboer’. Zen is the same.
Zen master Anton Heyboer. This is the explaining.
The four years war in Berlin and the four years rowing the waves, the brains I used to hold the seed inside the body and to go to use it in the head to come to the inspiration, with which you are doing the creation, and when you are not making art, but you are art yourself, then the incarnation comes out the intelligence to understand the results of the quantum mechanics. And to come in ‘there is no time’.
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